Ok, what a intense month... Wow!... where to start?...
At the start of this month I was not feeling too well, but I did not know exactly what it was.. after having lots of exams and tests I was still none the wiser as they all came back fine …so I was happy about that part, but then what was my problem?.. and of course this is where I started to think about my word.. Somatizar... What is going on inside of me that is making me feel not 100%?.. So I began to listen to my body and also look at the many external signs, that are around me, that I believe will always tell me what I need to know.. So one of the first things that I realized is that I was not in touch with myself in the same way that I used to be a long time ago... Sometimes taking a moment to just think about my life, my family, my projects and to ask myself if what I am doing with my choices are working for me.. So I did it and started with some internal work and some external work...
My external work... My house.. I turned my house upside down... I moved everything and reorganizedeverything.. I normally do this once a year but this time I wasn’t just cleaning the house, I was also letting things go, things that meant a lot to me at some point, but I knew that this was the moment to move on and let them go... They were occupying a space that was ready and waiting for a new memory of the now.. It was liberating!
I created new spaces for Sofia and Emma to read, do homework, play and to relax...! For Jules, oh well, he now has a new office!!... I surprised him with a new desk.. however I had to approach this strategically ... I knew that if I just walked into his office and said "hey darling I am just having a moment in my life and I feel that we have to change your office," it would not work.. for sure he supports and helps me in anything (completely re-organizingthe garage for example, thank god, our garage was a nightmare) but his office - No Way!!... So I hadthe “supposedly innocent” idea of looking at a few desks on the internet with him and in that moment I remembered a shop that we both really like... and Yes, there it was, a desk that he liked... a few days later I wassecretly buying the desk and three days after that the desk was delivered .. Voila! Surprise darling!!!!! Heabsolutely loved it and with that was inspired to completely re-organize and improve his office... it now looks so smart and even has a gorgeous scented candle that he lights every morning!
And for me...I now have an office, Yes!!! My own office.. Having always worked in the dining room, which wasnice but not ideal, I decided to empty a room that was full of other stuff and I put in an old desk and some other furniture that used to be stored in the garage, perfect! It is tiny but then so am I, so there is no need for more.. I feel very important when I sit at my desk... My neighbour is my maid.. her room is right beside me... haha.. It is funny!
In the meantime during all of this “house revolution” I have been working on all of my projects as well, organizing events and activities, riding in the mornings and of course going to lots of great parties, dinner parties, events and more parties... as for my internal quest … well I realized that doing all these things is something that I know, I love and make me happy.. so it did not take me that long to resolve ...So viva la fiesta!!! One of the parties was at a super cool social club that Jules and I belong to ... The theme was 1920’s... OMG.. Everybody was wearingclothes and outfits of this time, and when I stood on the balcony and looked down at all the people socializingaround the pool and bar area it felt that we had all gone back in time, absolutely amazing... What a night!
To finish this month we went with a group of friends to our classic Polo weekend at our favorite estancia... What a blast.. We played Polo, ate, drank, laughed and enjoyed our time like no tomorrow.. so much so that we ended upstaying an extra day...Our kids also had a dream time, they rode horses and played with their friends in the green fields of the estancia for as long and late as their little bodies allowed them...Magical Time, memories that last forever!
I will keep listening to my body and to the worlds arround me... in the meantime life carries on and I want to carryon with her...To Louise, Aimee, Thomas and Troy what a plesure to see you all again friends! ❀ Liana
